Today’s post is more food for your soul than food for your belly. For what feels like months now I have felt disconnected. Disconnected from my body, my joy and my strength. I suspect that I am not the only one out there that has ever felt like a complete stranger to the person staring back from the bathroom mirror. Things that I love have felt more like obligations and my obligations have felt cumbersome and consuming. I have continued through the illusory quicksand with an acceptable level of success, until last week when it occurred to me that acceptable and joyless aren’t good enough for me. It also occurred to me that life won’t automatically rearrange itself to make me happy. I have to arrange my life to make me happy and that is what I have begun to do.
Over the past week and a half I have taken an honest look at the activities, obligations and relationships in my life. I have begun to ask myself, “What do I want to keep and what can I begin to release?” In an effort to reconnect with myself/joy/life I have started to make changes to make more room….room to breathe. Its funny because as soon as I realized I was willing to release, I felt my heart open again with the willingness to receive. I saw a glimpse of myself and said, “There you are Sherry. It’s time to reclaim each other.”
I have decided to post on Exploits three days a week. For now that will be Monday, Wednesday and Friday. I have started to run again and have reintroduced myself to my journal. I wanted to share this experience with you because it has felt very lonely, yet I am confident that I am not alone in these feelings. If you are currently feeling or have ever felt negative, inadequate, lost or simply not yourself…know with certainty that you are not alone. We all have feelings that are confusing, consuming and scary but they can be an opportunity to step back and take a look at where we are now and how we got there. I am going to use it as an opportunity to make new choices, and adjustments until I feel happier and more deeply connected to myself and the things that matter to me.
It isn’t shameful to feel scared, inadequate, or lost but it would be a shame to sit by and watch your beautiful self circle down the proverbial drain. So, I am going to work to reclaim joyful, healthful and pleasurable days. Looking forward to sharing them with you.
Have a delicious day.